Wonder-(noun) a feeling of surprise mingled with admiration, caused by something beautiful, unexpected, unfamiliar, or inexplicable.
A most desirable feeling. And yet a most elusive one. Especially for grown-ups. The irony of growing up and seeing more of life makes us appreciate less of it. When did we lose the wonder of discovery, of new life? When did we lose the joy of creation and play?
Wonder is intertwined with faith and belief. As one builds up one’s faith to believe, wonder allows us to smile through our faith. It lightens the load of our struggles. It makes faith and life a joyous experience, one filled with light and love and magic. Wonder eases the pain, and it turns a gloomy soul into a heart filled with unexpected giddiness. While faith promises a better future, wonder makes joy happen now.
When does wonder starts? The age of discovery is heightened by year 2 of life. While the tantrums and emotions also run high, the senses are awakened to the beauty of life- the raindrops on tree leaves, the rough edges of the grasses, the magic of ovens making sweet and spice and everything nice– the list never ends. It is a perennially wondrous journey of awe inspiring life, and laughter fills your days and nights: While the rest of the world toils in endless labor, the eyes of wonder sees things through a bright light. While we moan and groan at the daily offenses we face, the heart of wonder sees the miracle of each day, and looks forward to the magic of tomorrow.
And as I am inspired by the faith of one child, I am in awe of the wonder of my other. While it is easy for me to be held down by the challenges of a stay at home mom, my child’s endless smiles force me to join in the silly laughter of the mundane. While it is second nature for my strong mind to resist and resent, my creative tot enables me to look outside the box, to view the world in the eyes of wonder and guts– he sees puddles as not dirt, but waters that tickle the feet. Heights and rocks he does not fear, they are wonders of nature for him to climb and enjoy. His view of wonder and courage enlightens and emboldens my own, and I can’t help but start to see the soothing calm of the dark and look beyond the shadows of doubts and fears.
I am blessed with the faith and wonder of my children. God gifted me with these two amazingly beautiful souls to enable me to begin and believe. As I lay with them and look into their little faces, I am overcome by their peace. I am inspired by their laughing spirit. I am moved by the simple joy of their giant hearts. In all my tragic and sad endings, I find hope in my new happy beginnings. And while my never after continues to haunt me, I find solace in the love of the ones whose faith and wonder pushes me to BELIEVE in my happily ever after.